“Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalm 73:25-26
I became a Christian at an early age; so much of my testimony is about growing in my relationship with Christ.
In September of 1975, my mother and baby sister died in childbirth. At that point, I realized the deep hurt of separation. During their funeral, the pastor told us of a separation that spoke volumes to my heart- eternal separation from Christ. I understood at that moment, that I am a sinner, I am separated from God because of that sin and my eternity will be spent without Him. I listened so intently to the pastor as he spoke of what Jesus did for us. How He made a way for us through His death, burial and resurrection. I had heard it many times from my mom, but this time, I really listened and understood. I knew right then and there that Christ was calling me to Him. So, right there at my mom’s funeral, I received Christ as my very own personal Lord and Savior. I remember looking down at my mom and baby sister whispering, “I will see you again.”
At the age of 15, something tragic happened to me. I felt as if I had made God angry.I began to doubt His love for me which then led me to decisions that were not God-honoring. I began to seek the things of the world instead of Christ. I felt so broken-hearted; I believed God had changed His mind about loving me. The more I doubted, the farther I wanted to run away from Him. But, I belonged to God and He wanted me back. He came for His beloved!! He showed me in such a beautiful way, that His love for me had not changed and that He has plans for me. I cried tears of joy. He broke the cycle of doubt and tore away the lie the enemy had ruthlessly convinced me to believe.
In 1999 I joined a local church and at that church, I rededicated my life to Christ. Upon joining, He called me to work specifically in Children’s Ministry and I have been there ever since. Ladies, He is faithful!! My heart wants to leap right out of my chest every time I think of how much He loves me, even after the mud and muck of the doubt I lived in.
Though the heartache will still come, I will continue to seek Him because “He is the strength of my heart”- the Only one who can steady it when it becomes restless. I love my KING! There is so much more to my story that Christ is writing for me. He is writing yours too.
ACTIONS OF THE DAY:
MONDAY: DAY ONE
Think about the story Christ is writing for you. Reflect on who writes your story. Rest in the truth that God loves you and will never leave you. Please share your thoughts on the blog – we are here for one another.
TUESDAY: DAY TWO
If you have a Bible verse that speaks to your heart. Share the verse on the blog with us.
WEDNESDAY: DAY THREE
Is there a time in your life where you experienced overwhelming heartache? How did you respond to this heartache? Feel free to share on the blog today how you overcame the heartache and perhaps you will encourage other women.